Proverbs 3:5-6New King James Version (NKJV)
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.
A long time ago I memorized this passage front the Bible, not knowing at the time how often I would recall it throughout my life. There are so many things of this world I do not understand but yet ponder “why?” It is human to ask “why?” and yet we learn that it is not ours to ask why but to trust.
As I have watched the last three weeks unfold before my eyes, I see how great our God really is. I am but a speck of dust in the scheme of things. He does amazing things with people and in people’s lives that is beyond human comprehension.
As my son and I drove away from the hospital last evening from visiting David, I interrupted our chatter and threw up a praise to God; “Thank you for David’s healing and recovery God!” In the midst of the highway, interrupting our conversation I threw up praise to the only one who understands.
I cannot understand how a man that one week ago had just come off of a ventilation, feeding tube and medications and was not a candidate for bypass surgery is now walking freely, no tubes, talking like he was three weeks ago and getting fitted for a life vest to return home this weekend in preparation for bypass surgery. This man died in front of my eyes three and a half weeks ago, clung to life one night as a wise nurse called for quick medical attention and now this!
Who am I to question God? Fear, joy and so many emotions come to mind. Fear of God, fear of the possibility of this happening again, joy of his healing, joy for his return to our home, confused and scared of what the future holds. THe human part of me is feeling so many mixed emotions coming through. The heart of this human hears, ” Be still and know that I am God.”
A strange coincidence that I mentioned to my son last night on our ride home. At Christmas I would watch one of my favorite movies, “War Room” over and over and over again as I relaxed over the holidays. David had bought me the War Room Prayer Journal and Study Guide from my Amazon Wish List and I was so excited. As I filled in a few lines of people I was praying for, some I have prayed over for years, one line reads “David’s prayer life.” I was lead to pray over this and to this day I am not sure what in the world possessed me to write this in that little book. I did and I prayed and now….
Thursday morning’s early call from David included a list of “bring me’s”. He wanted his electric razor and a mirror and his study bible. You can imagine my emotions after we hung up. Excited he was able to ask for some things from home, but also that he asked for his bible. He said his bible app was great but not the same as the written word in his hands. He had some things to get straight.
Each day I pray over specific things and people; my sons have been prayed for and over since they were babies. Each day I pray a bubble of God’s love, health and safety over my children. I have prayed over the wives of my sons, the children and grandchildren they will have and I have prayed over my husband in much the same way. Each day God never fails me. God has answered by War Room Prayer Journal note. David’s prayer life will never be the same again. As I check that off my list I am filled with joy that He answers prayer, but I return to the scripture above as I look back at what has taken place. I certainly did not pray for all that has occurred. God provides as we pray!
Pray over your family, friends and community. Be persistent in your prayers! My grandmother taught me long ago to “Pray without Ceasing” as the Bible passage says. Who prays for their son-in-laws and daughter-in-laws before your child’s first birthday? I do. I believe God will provide the perfect woman for my sons to help meet their needs, provide Godly partnership and wisdom to them and their children. I believe God provides for our business needs and allows us to “Bless Others” every day as our Mission Statement says.
In all things, good and bad, don’t lean on what you know, lean on God, trust Him and He will direct your paths. One version of this passage says “will make your paths straight.” Both of these versions will give you strength as you go through the unknown. David is a miracle! A massive heart attack that most would not walk away from, he is walking away and has a hope for the future!
Stay with us as over the coming days and weeks I recount the steps to the fateful day and the events that are beyond comprehension. I sit back in wonder and amazement as to the direction of God and how He was with David and I as His plan unfolded and the beauty that is coming from it. Be strong, be faith filled! God has plans for you Jeremiah 29:11 tells us. Believe!